Monday, January 17, 2011

the day i peed on a stick

aku ingat lagi first time period lepas nikah, exactly 1 week after nikah. 26th March 2010. aku rasa down. a little bit. seriously i was perplexed, why would i feel that way when i have no plan whatsoever to have a kid this early.

haha. rupanya hati kecilku mahukan little andika secepat mungkin. kihkih..

5 weeks after nikah, kawan-kawan Zagreb dtg melawat kami di Penang. Maka kami pon ke Feringgi utk bermandi manda. kawan Zagreb seorang ni, let's call him Abu, adalah seorang smoker tegar, i ride in the same car with abu and abu smelt like cigaratte butt, that makes the car smelt like ashtray. aku dah mula pening-pening, tapi itu normal sbb aku memang allergi dengan rokok.

maka berjalan-jalan la kami die tepian pantai, bersama kawan-kawan Zagrib yg memamg tidak seberapa betul lepas main wii boxing smp lebam. parking bontot saja di atas pasir mulus feringgi, pening tadi datang lagi, this time it's full blown. Makan panadol actifast dan tidur la saya di pantai ferringgi.

selepas matahari terbenam, abang-abang kuda mula lah membuat quick sales, "adik nak naik kuda, 6 ringgit jer dik. biasanya 10 ringgit, utk adik abang bg 6 ringgit ja". aku sgt amat nakkkkkk sgt naik. tak tau la kenapa, hari tuh aku rasa haiwan yg plg cantik ialah kuda. muscle reflex bile die gerak, fuhhh sexy habis. and mata dia, ekor nya, everything about horse attracts me like crazy that day.

ade Zagreb tanya, nak tak, aku mcm ish dah lambat, maghrib dah ha. let's just balik. mak aku pesan jgn main dekat luar maghrib-maghrib. hmm.

perjalanan pulang memang menyeksakan. sbb sakit kepala kembali sampai berdenyut2, tak boleh bkk mata. they all were arguing on where to have dinner, and i was restraining myself from throwing up. and i told Zagreb to just drop me back home first. masuk rumah aja i head straight to the bathroom, semua isi perut dari breakfast sampai la tea time semua nya keluar balik. the next day, pening dan sakit kepala tuh masih ada, and i lost my appetite to eat. so i spent the whole day tidur.oh its pretty normal since my period is due in just a few days. PMS la tuh. nothing new there.

on Monday, my mom call, aku tgh mandi and zagreb answered, die accidentally mentioned pasal aku pening kepala the weekend before, and my mom was sooo excited, thinking she's going to have another grandchild soon. cet. so she keeps on pushing me to go and do the test. i was like no mom its just my PMS. and she kept calling me everyday after that asking "so did you have your period yet?" "erm not yet" "dah lekat la tuh, bawak-bawak la pegi checkup". sheesshhh.

2 weeks after, still no period. aku mula cuak. and all the what-ifs questions flooding my mind. Happy tuh memang la sangat, tapi dah risau pasal tanggungjawab as a mother. am i ready? seriously mixed emotions gila.

so went to buy pregnancy test, i bought the most expensive one there is blue apa dah brand dia, sebab takut nnt false positive. kihkih. first time i peed on a stick. pelik gila. since its the high end test kit, it took only 5 sec for the result. positive. false positive kot! nasib baik i bought the twin package, so ade lagi satu test kit. few days afterwards i peed again on the stick, and still positive. what are the odds kan?

turns out i was 6 weeks pregnant and the beginning of the hellish morning sickness that is actually an all-day-sickness. hands down it is the most excruciating 3 months of my life. :D

p/s: agak-agak kalau aku naik la kuda yg abang-abang kuda tuh promote, will the test still be positive? Kalau dah takdir kan.